TRUST BETRAYED

As a Christian, I thought I could trust all children of God. But today, I was proven wrong. One of them betrayed my trust for her own benefit (I think). To J, I hope you really benefited from this betrayal. I hope what you have done has saved your skin and your job. However, I do not attribute this to religion. I still love my God. This incident is purely a character problem.

Here's the whole story (though disappointing it's funny)

Let's welcome the characters....

J aka The Betrayal

C aka The Daughter

A aka The President

Last week I hitched a ride on J's car. As J is a Christian, I've decided to share with her my impending decision, hopefully I get a Christian point of view. I told J that I've only told her and asked her to keep it a secret. She's not to tell even the boss' daughter, C.

J: Of course. I won't say. I encourage you to go for it. If not for C, I would have left.

Today A asked me to her room.

A: I'm talking to you as a Christian. I heard that someone has approached you.

Me: Where did you hear it from?

A: Please don't be angry with the person. J told C and asked C not to tell me. But C had to tell me but asked me not to tell you.

Me: I am not angry. I am just disappointed that I have trusted the wrong person.

A: Please don't tell J that you know C and me know already.

The trust of 3 people betrayed. I am not going to tell on A. I'll just keep quiet until the whole thing is over. By then maybe it is no longer important.

有时没得选择是好的。。。

很多人会埋怨自己被逼到一个死角，没得选择。自己在做的事是情非得以的。但是事情做久了也就习惯了。慢慢得进入舒服，慵懒的状态。就在这个时候，选择慢慢浮现了。自己就会开始和现状和可能之间挣扎，纠缠。害怕保持现状会一成不变，害怕选择可能会自讨没趣。担心失去现状会百感交集，担心错过可能会后悔莫及。

是你会怎么选择？

如果一切重来。。。

有些事自己明明不喜欢但还是会做。
有些事明明做了也没意义但还是会做。
有些事明明做了知道会后悔但还是会做。
有些事明明知道是被利用但还是会做。
不了解为什么自己会去做这些事。
很多时候做了便自己对自己失望。
如果一切重来我还会去做这些事吗？
不做的结局会是怎样？
我一定就会喜欢那样的结局吗？
可能事情做多了便会喜欢呢？
可能事情真正的意义我还没摸清呢？
可能事情做了后悔是一种教训呢？
可能事情做了是互相利用呢？
我还会希望一切重来吗？
我这样的结局算好吗？

我生平第一次打999。。。

29 March 2009

昨天帮妈妈买的衣服有问题，所以回到Metro换。脚好痛。一定是昨天在gym跑步的时候扭伤的。换了衣服，便马上到Hereen前面的巴士站等车。巴不得马上能到家。好热哦！太好了，荧光屏显示我的巴士还有5分钟就到了。

突然有个漂亮的妇女走过来对我说：“会讲中文吗？”我点了点头，以为她是迷路的中国游客。妇女说：“我的孩子不见了。他上了前面那辆巴士。但我没看清楚巴士的号码。你能帮我吗？”我一时傻住了。天啊，我自己也不知道该做什么。我打了给transit link求助。然后决定打给警察。拨999的时候紧张死了。我要跟警察说什么？这是我生平第一次打给警察嘞。警察让我们在巴士站等他们。妇女的眼眶红了。我拍拍她的肩膀，妇女哭了。为了安抚她，我问了她一些问题，帮她分心。原来是倍读妈妈。孩子8岁。刚到新加坡2星期。他们是苏州人。不愧苏州出美女。

两位警察终于到了，问了几个问题，打了几通电话。突然妇女的电话响了。原来是儿子打来的。儿子说有路人把他带回酒店。那是又两名警察来到现场。好多路人都看着了我们。好像呐喊，“我没有犯法。我是好人na!”

带着妇女找德士，我的脚好像不痛了。走得很快。看着妇女上了德士，我功成身退。走回巴士站等车。这时脚又痛了。。。

Metro Sale Survival Tips

28 March, 2009

Today is Metro sale from 6pm - 11pm. I have a few items to buy. My mom's clothings, my mom's shoes, Clarins cosmetics and Clinque skincare. Today's sale is slightly different there is an additional 10% discount on top of the usual 20% discount during sale. The cashier's queue has started at 5.30pm. Here's some survival tips that I have learnt.

1. Get a man to stand in the queue while you shop. By the time you're done shopping, it's your time to pay.

2. Decline having your cosmetics being placed at the cashier of your choice (Metro cosmetic section usually puts your chosen items at the cashier that you will be making your payment. They will give you a coupon to redeem your products.) During sale, the cashier usually turns up in a mess and the cashiers usually can't find your things. With your items in hand, you can choose the cashier will the shortest queue.

3. Don't queue at the cosmetics level. Try going to the women's clothings department or the men's department to pay. The queues are much shorter there.

I finish my shopping at 7pm. With 45min spent in the queue...

我回来了！

快要一个月了。我的柬埔寨4天3夜游的blog终于完成了。开始了blog才发现有好多人想到柬埔寨却不知从哪里开始计划。朋友和妹妹的朋友看了blog都觉得资料蛮仔细的。至少多数的重点都有了。突然有种想法。可能我可以做个travel journalist。帮杂志写travelogue。哈哈哈！想太多。。。

最近很容易疲累。连到gym的力气都没有。想到要运动就想睡觉。天啊！这样下去，我不肥死才怪。

我是个贪心的女人。。。

我自认自己对衣食住行不阔气，但也不贪心。但是我对工作和自己的发展却是个十足的贪心女人。我对工作就像是在吃自助餐一样。什么都想咬一口，怕输，怕吃不到好东西。就算盘子满到事物露出来了，我还打死不让别人碰。我宁愿被撑死也不愿把盘中的任何一样我未尝过的食物拱手让人。

如果我说只是因为我爱学习，应该太虚伪了。没错，我是喜欢学东西啦。但是另一个贪心的原因是我喜欢被“需要”的感觉。虽然工作繁重，有时发发牢骚，但是这种被需要的感觉让我很快乐。不知道是不是我天性就是这样，还是后天的教育所造成的。 也有可能因为我在家中是大姐，所以习惯被托付很多责任。或许我喜欢自找罪受吧。

现在工作算不错，但还能进步。老板给了我很多工作。虽然薪水没加，但是对我而言还不算是个大问题。有时当老板把一份工作让给我，我表面会埋怨一下，但心里却在暗爽。有时工作太难搞，做到要哭了，想放弃，心里却害怕如果放弃，机会就等于拱手让人。就这样我每次都硬着头皮把事做完。有几次老板把我的工作分配给我的同事，我的心理酸酸的。我到底是怎样啊！我快被自己气死了啦！