有五月天，有你们的日子

一连看了两天五月天的演唱会，突然又好多感触。不只五月天陪伴了我10年，还有你们。
还记得我们一起在Jurong East bus interchange一起排队用bus tickets换取SBS的演唱会吗？当时，我们最想看的是刚出道的五月天。演唱会上，我们不管旁人，跟着五月天一起high起来。
五月天在新加坡的第一场售票演唱会，也是他们的告别演唱会。在读大学的我们还是一起排队，一起挥动手上的荧光帮，一起跟着台上卖力表演的五个大男生唱沙喉咙，一起为来不及开始就要告别的五月天说再见。那时也是我们几个告别了一起看五月天演唱会的日子。
现在的我们，用着自己的方式支持五月天。就连看演唱会都已经有了自己的伙伴。虽然做事的方式不一样了，但是我们的心还是没变。我们还是跟10年前的自己一样，为五月天撑腰，为彼此撑腰。
朋友，我们之间接下来的10年，一定要跟五月天一样，只会越来越强，哪有变弱的道理。

谈钱伤感情。。。真的

谈钱伤感情，是真的。

刚刚看完电影，妹sms来说妈妈骂她自私。她很生气所以在家后面的游乐场坐着。弟来接我的时候，说二姐一直骂他没用。所以感到很自卑，很难看。

这一切要从7个月前说起。。。弟想参加california fitness。我跟妹算了算，觉得很划算。比他一直去safra gym便宜。妹就决定帮弟先还。弟也答应每个月用打工的钱分期付款还给妹。怎么知道，弟打工的公司迟迟没有支付工资所以弟没办法还。妹从此就每个月唠叨他还钱。终于，妹决定每个星期从弟的零用钱里拿$10。一个月还$40。

但是不知道为什么，妹今天又吃错药，又开始唠叨。说她跟弟拿$10，为什么妈又给他$10。不公平。然后就接着说弟还欠她很多钱，害她每个月都没钱花。妈只好拿出$500现金给妹。妹在弟面前摇晃着$500现金，便说他没用。

过后大家都平静了。但是我那想太多的妈又从床上爬起来骂我妹自私。爸也跟着起床，也发脾气。想马上去上班（平时是凌晨1点）。爸总是爱说：“吵什么！不睡了。现在要去渔场。如果有什么意外，你们高兴啦！”然后就会气呼呼的在走廊抽烟。

我回来了。跟弟商量如何尽快把钱还给妹。还私邸下跟妹说她用语太重了，不应该跟弟说他没用。最后为了不要让妹一直唠叨，我决定帮弟还一笔钱。然后弟还我。妹就发脾气说我护着弟，说我骂她。我只是把弟还钱的对象改成我。

我那爱什么事都插一脚，袒护弟的妈，只会制造问题不会解决问题的爸，爱唠叨的妹，脾气坏的弟，还有不想介入争吵的我。最这样被钱夹在中间。

偶像剧

这几天不知道心血来潮，重新开了我以前看过的偶像剧。我喜欢那种有钱少爷爱上穷女生的情节。《换换爱》，《流行花园》，《命中注定我爱你》，《浪漫满屋》等等，都是我爱看的。每次的感动，都是我以旁观者的角度去感受的。有时候我会想象，如果我是女主角，我还会像此时此刻的我一样感动吗？应该不会吧。

有朋友叫我不要看太多偶像剧。看了会脱离现实。但是我认为偶像剧有一定的真实在里面。怎么说编剧也是人。他的想象力再丰富，也得从现实生活中取材。看偶像剧，我并没有奢望什么。只希望我有一个跟剧里的结局的恋爱，有情人终成眷属。~

累。。。但是满足。

真的好累。但是做得很开心。至少我开始有东西学了。虽然每天都要做到很晚才能睡，但是觉得很满足。希望这种感觉能够持久。

My First Speed Dating Dinner

Last night was my first speed dating dinner experience. It started on the right note. John was being very nice by picking me up from my workplace. He works in Mandai, drove all the way to Tai Seng Ave and then to Orchard. He even agreed to send me home after dinner. The rest of the night should go on well, I thought.

Speed Dating at Hans, Park Mall

We went in and were given our sticker numbers. Coincidently, John and I were placed on table G. Jeffery was sitting there having his dinner already. We had exactly 35min to finish our dinner. We took our orders. Food was yucky. Then Marianne came. She's a fun girl. The dinner for the four of us were great. We were the loudest group of four, laughing and chatting away, while the other tables the guys and girls were having a silent dinner.

The Merry-Go-Round

It's time for the guys to move around. As some of the guys came late, they had to bring their dinner plate around. The first guy came with a plate of spagetthi. The rest came with their coffee. Most left their cleared cups and plates on our table. :( The guys have to move around every 10min.

The Opening

1. The guys sit down and look at the number pasted on my left side of my dress, look down the list and pointed at me, "You are Maggie." and pointed at Marianne, "You are Marianne." Looks up and say, "Pleased to meet you."

2. The guys sit down and look at our number and used a pen to make a mark on the name to remind them how many tables to go.

3. The guys sit down and stick out the hand and self introduce themselves.

4. The guys sit down and said, "please introduce yourselves."

Self-introduction

Surprisingly, no one was interested in asking the age. The usual self-introduction contents are name and the occupation. But there were men who actually wrote down our occupation beside our names on the namelist.

Self-introduction was pretty boring after the 5th round. We started out saying more about what we do. First round, Marianne self-introduced,"I'm Marianne and I work in the treasury of a private company. I handle cash." Fifth round, "I'm Marianne." When asked about occupation, "Treasury". So we decided since we know each other's opening so well already, we will introduce each other. The guys were quite surprised with the change. I guess we did right.

The guys (you girls must be waiting for this right?)

I cannot remember their names but these are some of the memorable guys.

1. Jeffery: A nice chap who shared a dinner table with John, Marianne and I. He was quiet at first but joined in the fun after breaking the ice.

2. The medical trainer: He trains new doctors in paramedics skills like CPR and etc. He continued by sharing the morbid truth of the training of new doctors. John wants to get to know him. But I forgot his name.

3. The "dao" auditor: He looked very distant when we were sharing. His partner, also Edwin said that he doesn't need to do auditing. Just supervise.

4. NUS linguistic lecturer: A round chap with a happy face. He kept saying he has been to many countries. He plays the piano and had many recitals. He has an upcoming one in NUS. Remembered him cos of his accent. He's an Australian Chinese who was born in Taiwan.

5. The telephone number guy: After self-introduction, he says, "let's exchange numbers first." Marianne and I pai seh to say no, so we put down our number along with those of the previous numbers he has collected.

6. Malcom: Look like in mid twenties. I remembered him cos I might need freelance designer for work. So I tell him if I got lobang, will look for him.

7. The very tired auditor: Self intro "I am . I am an auditor, sorry, I am very tired, old already. You all carry on with self introduction." He is turning 30 in a few months time. See his sian face, I also sian. We were his last table, can't he just try to pull through with a smiling face?

8. Jerald, The Organizer of Speed Dating: He was very long winded. He kept saying, "please hold polite conversation and don't ask sensitive questions." The rest of his speech was dotted with,"blah blah blah SHHHHH blah blah SHHHHH blah blah be quiet, let me finish, SHHHH.....SHHH....." and he is probably talking at a speed of 10 words per sec.

9. The "dao" woman: She is not a man to deserve to be part of this list. But she happens to sit just behind me. I can't help but listen to her converstation. She did self intro and continues to talk about women status in society in the past and present. John was totally put off by her.

We are supposed to submit our paper to say whom we are interested in. My paper was blank. I ended up helping the Marianne see the numbers of the guys she is interested in. I have three numbers on my paper; guy number 5, the lecturer who has his number printed in the paper and Marianne's.

Girls, let's go together again. Actually quite fun if you want to experience and see different men within the short 3 hrs.

我一定要任命吗？

当初在动物园上班的时候，一直想出来看看世界。

读完了masters in marketing，我想学以致用。刚好marketing department有空缺。虽然只是executive position，我并不介意降低职位，只想开始我的事业的新篇章。我想marketing director提出我的想法，问她觉得我是否是适合的人选。她说会想想。几天后的一个晚上，marketing director 打电话给我。问我是否跟我的老板说了我的想法，如果还没，她会帮我说。我觉得为我老伴留点面子，我拒绝了。我说会自己向我的老板提出调职。

隔天我跟老板提出调职的意愿。但是老板却说：“你不可能会到marketing department当assistant manager的。跟何况你有没有marketing的经验，marketing director怎么会要请你。”我告诉她marketing director已经知道我想过去marketing department的事了，而且想跟她谈谈我调职的意愿。

再过几天后，老板说她跟marketing director和HR director谈过了。结论是“because there are many transferring going on now, it is not very healthy. so the transfer is not approved. furthermore, the marketing director wasn't very interested in having you either.”如果marketing director对我的调职没有兴趣，为什么要打电话to offer to speak to my boss?

就这样，我离开了动物园，找到了我以为是更好的工作。表面上salary 比较高，又是个marketing的工作。但是事实并非如此。开始新工作的第一个星期就后悔了。觉得离开动物园是一种错误。所以就这样过了将近3年。对娱乐圈产生了兴趣。

到了新的公司，现在的我并没有真正的开心。跟director谈了一下，她问我，“Do you have passion in this industry?”

我想了很久，对这个industry的确喜欢也很有兴趣。但是这份喜欢跟兴趣能变成热诚吗？Director说他知道我在旧公司的时候有一直想离开，跟他一样。但是他发现没有用，只好任命，乖乖屈服。用工作就做。我一定要跟他一样吗？

蟑螂不会长生不老术。。。

我一直说我是只打不死的蟑螂。但是也只不过是打不死。我这只蟑螂还没学会怎样长生不老呢。这几天我发现我有老化现象。已经没有当年的精力了。在一车的人里面，我年纪最大的可能性非常高。我好害怕我的想法会变得落伍。好害怕会有一天跟不上年轻人。有很多时候是心有余而力不足。咳。。。蟑螂始终会有死掉的一天。